I hear that future Amanda is going to be wicked sweet

so on Sunday they talked a lot about conversion, they were saying that the word conversion means to change one thing into another. in the church we hear that word and we think of someone who wasn't Mormon and now is. but the way that they put it on Sunday really struck a cord with me. because conversion is a life long thing, and i am not necessarily talking about religion here now. we are all converting ourselves little by little into that person that we will eventually be. here's the question i had... who are we turning ourselves in to? hummm....
if today we are really miserable and grouchy then i think that we are more likely to be that way later or the next day. but if we want to be a happy person, somethings i think that it is a matter of just changing our minds or converting our minds, and please i don't mean to offend our manically depressed friends. but for a normal person the conversion of who we will be in say 30 years is based on individual decisions today to be happy or sad, a good cook or an accomplished reader, a pessimist or an optimist. all depending on how we spend out time and our decisions now. do we want to have a relationship with God, then we've got to put our time into it. if we want to be an amazing friend then we've got to put that first. I'm not saying that we can only do one thing, I'm just saying that we can't expect ourselves to wake up on day and be what we've always wanted to be, it's going to take time plus a decision to become that. it makes me think where do i put my time? do i really use my time for the things that will help me be who i want to be. but then that bugs the question of who the heck do i want to be... and franky i don't really know yet... but i hear that future Amanda is going to be really "awesome". :o)